In My Defense

by Megan Rae

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All songs written by Megan Rae

All songs produced, mixed, arranged and mastered by Matt and Sephra Scheuber at Shmoe Studios in Moore, OK.

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released November 11, 2014

Performances by:

Megan Miller (Megan Rae) -lead vocals, ukulele, guitar and fiddle
Jeremy Scott - cello and violin
Matt and Sephra Scheuber - all other instruments and backup vocals

Album art by Brandon Mosely

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Track Name: In My Defense
Through the tall grass and the wind,
And the flowers blooming,
There’s a cabin that’ll live here,
Forever in me,

All my secrets are within,
This cabin door you must open,
Without it you’ll never see,
The girl I’ll forever be,

The darkness within,
The light can outshine,
If you dive deeper then,

If you never see,
You’ll never see me,
If you never try,
The darkness will outshine the light,
The light,
The light.
Track Name: Easier
It’s a cold night,
In a hard town,
I’m on a train ride,
With the box clown,
Wonderin’ if it’ll get easier,

Had a tough fight,
I’m in a lost crowd,
On my own now,
Tryin’ to make it out,
Oh, it isn’t easier,

But oh,
It’s comin’ along,
Oh, it’s comin’ along,
Along, along,

Met at the doorway,
Saw your leavin’ sign,
I voted your way,
And rejected mine,
Oh, it wasn’t easier,

As the sky fell,
Through our matching eyes,
Looked once your way,
Then began my climb,
Oh, it’ll get easier,

But oh,
I’m walking away,
Oh, I’m walking away,
Away, away,

Oh, easier x7
Track Name: Hoax
Did you hear the story of the man who went missing,
Oh people called it a hoax,
He left his poor mother in misery,
Yet people called it a hoax,

Oh they say he’s never been real,
But I know he was he was my son,
Oh they say he’s never been here,
But I know he was he was my son,

Oh they claim I would lie,
For pennies and brightened eyes,
But I tell them as I lye on my deathbed tonight,
I’ve told you no lies,
I’ve told you the truth,
Please sir remember my son is you,
You took the words that changed you within,
Once my beloved son now a monster of men,
I’ve prayed for you every night,
But the devil continues to win this fight,

Did you hear the story of the woman who went missing,
Oh people called it a hoax,
Her sons now searching in misery,
Yet people call it a hoax,

Mama, I believe you now,
I can hear you now,
You were telling the truth,
Oh Mama, please come back to me,
I can’t do this without you,
Oh Mama, Oh Mama,
I believe you now,
I’m your son,

Oh they claim I would lie,
For pity and saddened eyes,
But I stutter as I tell of my mother’s life,
She prayed for me every night,
I refuse to let the devil win this fight,
I’m going home one day I’ll rise,
And I’ll meet my mother in the clearing skies,

I’m your son,
I’m your son,
I’m your son,
I’m your son,

Mama x4
Track Name: Have You
Have you ever seen somebody crying,
Have you ever seen somebody dying,

Have you ever cried for someone,
Have you ever lied for someone,
Have you ever tried for someone,
Have you ever even lived,

Oh, I’ve not even lived a thousand years,
A thousand years,
How can I say I know what you mean,

In the time he has left you,
You will be okay,
For you’re not weak,
You are always strong,
You will stand and not be alone,

In the time I must leave you,
I will not be afraid,
For I have lived my life,
Of which I had no right,
Goodbye my love, my love,
Goodbye my love, goodbye,

Have you ever looked at a sunrise,
Have you ever looked in to my eyes,

Have you ever loved someone,
Have you ever dreamed of someone,
Have you ever wished for someone,
Have you ever even,

Tried to be somebody,
You were not afraid to be,
For you’re not weak,
You are always strong,
You will stand and not be alone,

I hope I tried to be somebody,
I was not afraid to be,
For I have lived my life,
Of which I had no right,
Goodbye my love, my love,
Goodbye my love, goodbye.
Track Name: Hm
Run, I hope you know how to run,
Just run,

Run into the forest,
Run into the hills,
Run where they can’t find you,
They’re only out to kill,

Oh, You don’t believe me,
Oh, You think I’ll deceive you,
Hm,

Stay, in your home so cold and safe,
That’s what you think,
Just stay,

The thieves are upon you,
The liars at your door,
The murderers behind you,
The graves below the floor,

Oh, You didn’t believe me,
Oh, You thought I’d deceive you,
Hm,

Cold, as they carry you away,
You’re not the same,
Just cold,

A new life you awake to,
You’re standing at a door,
The Lord stands before you,
You’re shaking to the core,

Oh, You didn’t believe me,
Oh, You thought I was deceiving you,
Hm.
Track Name: Weaved
Weaved,
You’d like to think this would end good,
You’d like to say I never would,
Tell of your sins that you have done,
And of some that you’ve not overcome,
But that’s your fault to be naïve,
It’s your own web that you have weaved.
Track Name: Sparrow's Secrets
I’ll find you in the depths of my soul that I’ve buried,
And I hope I can set you free,
All the secrets in the night sky will be your dark guide,
They’ll carry you away from me,

Oh, the stars are coming down,
Oh, to this dark cold ground,

Oh x3

The sparrow holds secrets that no one will know,
And the sailor will say that it saves,
But pennies will pull you away from your God,
And give you fragments of broken days,

Oh, the lines on your back,
Oh, tell a different story of your past,

Oh x7

Palaces full of gold,
Promises too hard to hold,
I know that is what you were told,
But demons dressed as angels,
Fly away when the wind blows,
But who will stay when the rest will go.
Track Name: The Soldier
A soldier home from war,
He’s not the same anymore,
But he will try to please you,
Pretend he doesn’t need you,
He needs you,

Like a child lost in the dark,
Suffers from a frightened heart,
He will find your light,
You’ll save him from the night,
The night,

The loneliest times will start,
When you are not apart,
But he will find the key,
Unlock who he used to be,
He’s home,

But he will find the key,
Unlock who he used to be,
He’s home.
Track Name: Down The Road
I was searching down the road for you,
And I didn’t know exactly what I’d do,
If I saw you there silently,
Coming towards searching for me too,

And I was searching down the road for him,
And I thought he wouldn’t come,
Oh where had he been,
But patience kept me alive,
And now I’m happy to look in his eyes,
Forever,

And I was not afraid,
When they told me of his days,
And he was not afraid,
When I told him of my age, ah,

So find me here I’ve found you now,
You’re my true friend oh you’re real now,
Could we be happy in a cabin of our own,
We’ll call it our home,
Oh we’ll call it our home, oh,

And I’ll go searching through the woods for him,
And you’ll find him working on his art,
And me on my sins,
Yeah you’ll find him working on his art,
And me on my sins, oh,

Cause I’ve been searching down the road for me,
And I found out I’m who I was meant to be,
Oh yes I found out,
This is who I was meant to be.
Track Name: Fall From Stone
One more night to be alone,
Singing one more night to fall from stone,
Singing la la la la lalala,
Oh la la la la lalala,

The fairies told the story of a fallen prince,
How a maiden came to save him from his emptiness,
But in the morning when the sun rose,
And the star glows would go home,
He’s be turned to stone,
And the fairies would sing,

One more night to be alone,
Singing one more night to fall from stone,
Singing la la la la lalala,
Oh la la la la lalala,

The children of the valley found their way home,
But to the witches they would lie with their silver tongues,
And in the morning when the night died,
And the children lied,
They’d be turned to stone,
And the fairies would sing,

One more night to be alone,
Singing one more night to fall from stone,
Singing la la la la lalala,
Oh la la la la lalala,
Track Name: Gold and Stone
If I had the power to,
I’d fall in love with you,
If I had a heart of gold,
I’d turn yours away from stone,
If I had a simpleness,
I’d make you whole,
But I’ve fallen deeper into this heart of stone,

One more night,
One more stony wall to climb,
One more broken heart left behind,
One more solo to sing all alone,
One more simple wish,
Just to be dismissed,
One more fall,
Out of bliss,

If I found your heart of gold,
Buried inside her chest,
Maybe I’d realize,
I am not the best,
If you find my heart of stone,
In someone elses home,
Maybe you’d realize,
You aren’t alone,

One more night,
One more stony wall to climb,
One more broken heart left behind,
One more solo to sing all alone,
One more simple wish,
Just to be dismissed,
One more fall,
Out of bliss.
Track Name: Winter Will Be Over Soon
The boys would fill the shovels with bitterness,
The warm water washed over my skin,
It wasn’t fair to me it wasn’t fair to them,
And mama would cry but she wouldn’t tell you,
The wolves at night they would howl,
They just howled at the moon,
And I’d be alone I’d be alone,
While the snow fell down,
Till she’d come say,

Don’t worry my girl,
Winter will be over soon,
Don’t worry my girl,
There’s nothing you could do,
Don’t worry my girl,
Just think of the moon,
Shining on you,
Think of the moon,
Shining on you,

The leaves would go away,
They’d crumble to dust,
I learned about life how it was,
That when you died you were gone,
And nothing could bring you back again,
Oh we’d jokingly say we were young we’d never die,
But in our minds we believed it,
To ourselves we would lie,
And I’d say I wasn’t afraid for you and I,

Oh you say you would give up your life,
To have just one peaceful night,
But I dare you to say that,
To those who have died,
Oh I dare you to say that,
To those who have watched them die,

Don’t go wishing,
Don’t go wishing your life away,

My sister she died in the snow covered path,
I tried to save her with all that I had,
And I cried when she asked me to sing her away,
So I grabbed my strength up off the floor,
I put her head in my hands,
They were cold nothing more,
And my voice it cracked as I sang her,
These words as she faded away,

Don’t worry my girl,
Winter will be over soon,
Don’t worry my girl,
There’s nothing you could do,
Don’t worry my girl,
Just think of the moon,
Shining on you,
Think of the moon,
Shining on you.
Track Name: Elizabeth
Tell me I’m your favorite,
Tell me I’m your only one,
I can’t stand to have my heart broken again,

Please don’t go breaking me,
I’d hate to die alone you see,
In the big old,
The big old,

Oh hello Elizabeth,
Beautiful Elizabeth,
Oh you’re staring now at the bow in her hair,
It’s the same one I always wear,
But at me you never stare,

Oh, Elizabeth,
Beautiful Elizabeth,

If I met a witch,
That would grant me one wish,
I’d wish to be Elizabeth,
Then I’d know how it felt,
To have power and wealth over everyone,

Oh, Elizabeth,
Beautiful Elizabeth,

Oh Elizabeth,
How could we have known,
That your dad hits your face,
Everyday when you’re home,
And your moms wasted in bed,
You try to help her rotting head,

Elizabeth,
Beautiful Elizabeth,
Poor Elizabeth,
Lonely Elizabeth.
Track Name: In The Morning
Oh he told me that he loved me,
Yesterday,
In the wee hours of the morning,
When I awoke afraid,

Oh he told me I was the one,
He hoped would stay,
And I asked God,
To let me know,
If I could love him so,

God let me know,
Let me know,

So I told him that I loved him,
Yesterday,
In the wee hours of the morning,
When he awoke unafraid,

And I told him he was the one,
I hoped would stay,
And I asked God,
To let me know,
If he could love me so,

God let me know,
Let me know,

But in the conflicts of my mind,
A dreamers heart,
Gave way,
Went blind,

But in the shallowness of these times,
They tell me slow down,
Do things right,
But I won’t give up,
Without a fight,

Could I love him so,

God let me know,
Let me know.